Happy, cheerful and ecstatic
That’s how one would describe her
With eyes that are very dramatic
Oh she’s beautiful, no one would differ
Teachers love her, that’s for sure
She possess every quality, with which one can lure
She’s everything, bright, intelligent and savvy
In short, everything for which one has to envy
Most popular kid of the school,
That’s no doubt
Never misses on schedules,
Works with no halt
Everyone is bound to love her
That’s what you think
Dark is her past, fate and life
Thoughts fly off in a wink
As usual, for school she leaves
Down with a sense of grief
In the campus, Rinngg… She hurries
Face changes, with a smile in a brief
Oh make up! Such a wonderful tool
Covers flaws up
Oh so beautiful!
Deep inside, is the bitter truth
She reaches home all tired,
Goes back to her dull old tone
This is not how she was wired
People all around, yet, she was all alone
She goes to sleep
Sound and in peace
The heart that is clustered with emotions
Sleep does not come in ease
She woke up
Emotionally dead
She tried covering it up
Couldn’t, she went ahead
Never was anything the same for her
Nor did she feel it could be
Monsters from within, tearing her apart and crushing her
Flashes of all the things she did not want to see
Incidents happened, one over the other
Isolated she was, no one seemed to bother
“Oh she’s just sad, she’ll be alright”
“Attention seeking drama queen”
She did hear them all right
She felt bleeding in and out, from her cells to her spine
She goes to sleep
Sound, but not in peace
Her monsters laughing at her every leap
Frightened she woke up, it all came to a cease
“Will I ever be loved?
Will I ever be cared?
Will the torturous trauma ever come to a stand?”
She cried as she lost all hope, the only thing she had
A moving dead corpse
A body with no soul
Heart beating fast in fear, like a racing horse
Inside her, just one big hole]]
She kept everything trapped in her.
The past for her is not just any bygone
All crumbled, giving it back in a blur
And she refused to let it out to anyone
She goes to sleep
Neither was she calmed, nor was she in peace
Her neurons stretch with emotions taking every leap
It went out of hand, to bring it to cease
Pain and agony clutches her tight
Tired of choking she loses her mind
Her eyes move from left to right
If only she could unwind
A hurricane storms inside her
Silence, not a single murmur
She’s lost and drifted probably forever
Like a volcano, she erupts in tears,one, two, three and another
She wants to sleep
Sound and in peace
This time forever
To let her pain cease
Pills pop in
Her neurons go fast
Heartbeat goes down
And she fell down at last
She goes to sleep
Sound and in peace
All her pain comes to a cease
Chaos and trouble kept aside
Towards heaven, her soul shall stride
– Gayathri Krishnaraj
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